3 STONE!

So, I have officially lost over 3 stone! I am currently 43 lbs lighter than I was in mid October and I'm pretty pleased about it. I mean, most days I feel disappointed in myself simply because I don't feel any different. I know it's a gradual thing, so obviously I'm not going to lose 10 stone overnight, but I'm just a little bit obsessive I suppose.

Also, I bought the blue dress from Joe Browns that was mentioned previously:

I bought it in a size 16, so hopefully I should fit into it soon enough.

Spot the difference!

So, can you see the difference over the past 2 months?

Probably not.

He's dead. One of the most important people in my life is dead.

It's safe to say I've had the most traumatic weekend of my life.

I hate myself so much.

Sob.

I'm so ill I want to cry, but that would cause suffocation.

I have, however, gone over my 2 stone mark by only eating a cheese sandwich a day.

Life.

The highlight of New Year had to be Sherlock, dear god that series is amazing. Benedict Cumberbatch and Martin Freeman were as amazing as ever, Freeman is adorable and Cumberbatch is attractive in a really-not-attractive-I-need-my-eyesight-checked way. Sigh feelings.

I'm feeling a lot better today than I was a few days ago, official 22 pounds lost, I keep acidently forgetting to eat sometimes. oh well.
Anyway, the book I'm reading Wintergirls is the most depressing thing I have read for a while, it is about ED's and how the main character Lia relapses into her old habbits when her best friend dies. The best friend had tried to call Lia 30+ times before she died but she never picked up. It is a pretty grueling and hard to get throught at times, but it is even harder to put down, it's pretty upsetting for the most-part but the ending is very good.

I am however dreading going back to school, I still have 2 piece of English to do and I am so worries about my Biology Exam, despite having done not much else dudring this break besided exercising and Biology papers.

That is about 7 Biology papers that I did on New Years Eve/Day until 3am (including drawing breaks in 'bio break' time). I swear I'm still only getting the hang of how to answer the questions. I really, really hope I don't do badly.

If I do, after doing this much work, I'm not even going to try again.

happy (depressing) new (almost) year!

It is currently 11:13pm and I am lying in the ancient  floral sheets of a bed in one of the many spare rooms in my grandparents house. I am staying overnight to be with my Junie, my grandfather Jackie is back in hospital after falling and hitting his head, and since he isn't here and my grandmother doesn't need looking after the carers have been given New Year off to go to London, therefore I'm staying with her in the massive empty house because I adore the ground she walks on. I'm here as a distraction for her. I can tell how upset she is, she has been on and off for months, feeling helpless as he refuses to eat or move anymore.

I undertand.

I'm definately not going to sleep as the house creeps my out and I have a ridiculous amount of work to do. I'm going to write my English coursework and then I'm going to mark a few Biology papers.

I was just thinking, I hope new year will be better than the last one. I know it won't be. I wished for the same thing last year. I know some time in 2012 someone is going to die.

I know.